“Rivers belong where they can ramble, eagles belong where they can fly, I’ve got to be where my spirit can run free … got to find my corner of the sky…” Pippin
I don’t exactly know where I’m going.
Not in the big picture life sense anyway.
But I do know I’m glad about the road I didn’t take.
I had dinner the other night with two schoolmates trapped in their lives. Between them, they had more than half a dozen children, a couple of husbands with infidelity issues and not enough money in the bank. They were worried, they were angry and they looked very, very old.
I like to think of myself as the marrying type, but realistically speaking, my track record hasn’t been good. The two occasions I got asked, I didn’t take either man up on the offer. I didn’t want their kids. Still don’t want any. Maybe I’ll change my mind in a couple of years. Maybe I just need to find the right guy. Maybe I was born irresponsible.
I don’t know.
But I can’t sit around and angst about my choices when the sun’s shining in my eyes and my backpack’s full and my comfiest sandals are strapped to my feet.
I’m free to do whatever I want with my life.
The world awaits!
I’ve always wanted to walk the streets of Shanghai, pretending to be an extra in a Chinese art film; I’ve always imagined myself eating paella in the plazas of Madrid, studying art in Florence and architecture in Berlin, practicing Portuguese on the beach with native Brazilians, sailing a yacht on the Mediterranean, antiquing in New England, climbing pyramids in Egypt, swimming in Bali …
How I’m going to do all this …
I really don’t know.
But in my dreams, I’m already there.
And in my dreams, the whole world is my corner of the sky.
natutuwa ako… :p
I’ve always been happy and proud about your choice – the road you have taken. I can’t wait till my baby gets out and finally meets her Ninang Nessa. I feel that you can teach her how to be a complete woman without thinking that she has to be tied to a man, show the world is hers to take and discover, and view (and sometimes challenge) the future without fear of whatever it might bring. You’re the epitome of “cool” in my book and I’m just as excited as you on this new adventure. Go gurl! ;D
awww, shucks gilds, nakakaiyak naman yan …
excited na rin akong makilala siya!
I’m pretty sure you’ll change your mind about having kids one day.
Just remember: just because it’s happened to other people doesn’t mean it will happen to you.
Keep smiling!
actually i used to have a recurring dream about a little boy who wanted to be my kid, but i guess it’s not his time yet …
kung saan ka man pupunta, huwag mong kalimutang magpaalam.
mga isang taon bago ko maproseso iyong pag-alis mo. kaya dapat, isang taon ang warning bago ka umalis. hehe.
if it takes you a year to process, then i think i should have given you the warning last january!
but don’t worry friend, magpapaalam ako. tsaka bibisitahin mo naman ako san man ako mapadpad.
*hikbi* hikbi*huwaahhh!*
WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH…
kumusta namaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan!!!
pero kung ‘yun ang ikaliligaya mo — HMM, PWEDE BANG MAGPAAMPON PAG BINISITA KITA SA PUPUNTAHAN MO???
wahahahahhahahahahahahahahaha!!!
grabe — i never thought na mas matindi pang mga rebelasyon ang makukuha ko sayo dahil sa blogsite na ito…
MABUHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!
so mahal ko kaw pek…
ingat lagi!!!
anubakayo? andito lang ako sa lungga ko sa 2nd floor, wala pa namang nangyayari. try not to miss me before i even leave. hahaha!
minsan, wala ka sa lungga mo tulad nung isang gabi…
haha, namiss mo ako!
joke! hoy, dami kong work — minsan nga lang nasa labas din meeting tsaka shoot tsaka kung anik-anik …
an empty office space is kinda sad to look at– pero pag wala ka sa cubicle mo, i’d like to think that you’re doing something else other than work…