I haven’t slept in more than 30 hours.
Decided to go to a party last night after a long day. A little members-only cult party where guests had to come in their winter clothes. (I’d post our adorable coats and scarves pics but I didn’t get to ask everyone’s permission.)
The Yakkers have been holding this party for years [...]
It’s official. I’m mid-lifing. Or mid-life crisising.
(huh? those aren’t real words, get a dictio … )
My beloved friends from high school told me last night, it was like meeting up with the high school me again. My sister wrote to say I am looking and thinking the way I did when I was a teenager.
(true, [...]
I didn’t cook anything at all this Christmas. No paella or pesto or marinara, no prawns or steak or sea bass, and no favorite spinach pie. No attempt at something creative like an Indian curry or a Greek moussaka or even just plain sinigang. As in nothing.
He will always be my friend but I don’t [...]
Here are the folks with their first grandchild Meta (whole name: Metaphor, Naya’s cat). : )
And here’s a message for Kuya Ziv and Naya, who I miss the most at Christmas …
You know how the folks never say much about how they feel?
Well, yesterday was a bit different. Maybe they’re growing older, maybe [...]
Opening Montage:
Dizzying spinning, sickening drinking
Room full of breaking hearts
Cutaway:
Me on my sixth or is it seventh shot
Thought I was whole yet am as broken as they
Transition To:
A talk resumes as deep as the ocean
Should have told him I don’t know how to swim
Jump Cut Series:
Are the hours really passing
The time-keeper forgets to check her clock
Upsot:
Don’t [...]
I’m starting to feel what it’s like to be alone again.
You have to understand this is not easy for someone who has been a serial monogamist for more than half her life. I pretended to be independent but behind me there was always a strong man.
I was with a math whiz for five years who calculated my grade [...]
I want to hug Nick Ray, the Lonely Planet Cambodia author, for recommending the most romantic resort I have ever had the luck to live in. Le Residence d’ Angkor is gorgeous in its simplicity. No obvious facade from the outside, no fancy lobby, no tour groups. But the so-called ordinary room I stayed in was decorated in thai silk and [...]
a cloudy Angkor Wat sunrise …
a temple hole I whispered a wish into …
head in the sky …
cooling down by the lily pond …
amok fish for lunch …
the little vendor who wouldn’t give up …
a stone-gobbling tree …
steep steps up to Pre Rup that I climbed to shoot the sunset …
prettiest sunset, ironically shot [...]
I sat for a long time today outside the Bayon temple, staring up at its main tower. For some reason, the darkness of it coupled with all those eyes looking down at visitors from every angle, made me think of Tolkien’s Mordor.
The Bayon does not have a religious vibe. It has the aura of an [...]
My first thought when I woke up this morning was so unexpected, it shocked me: my boss is unhappy. It’s funny how you sometimes have to go far away to see the people who are closest to you.
Maris may not know it yet but the mysterious illnesses that plague her are manifestations of something deeper. [...]
Really didn’t plan on showing my face on this blog, but what the heck …
These are for Naya, who’s been asking what I look like now.
I entertained myself at the airport yesterday by trying to figure out how to shoot my own close up with the new cam. Of course, the girls in line behind me kept giggling.
“Ang jolog naman nito,” sabi sa [...]
I can’t believe I forgot I was alive.
I can feel my heart beating today, no, bursting actually. The inner noise has been switched off and I can hear my thoughts again. Some of them are funny, such as: I feel like a big, walking wound whose scabs just fell off a few seconds ago, leaving [...]
